Martha Marcy May Marlene

"You know that death is the most beautiful part of life, right?
Death is beautiful because we all fear death.
And fear is the most amazing emotion of all
because it creates complete awareness.
When you’re scared it forces you to be completely aware of your surroundings and the moment you’re in.It brings you to NOW.
And that makes you truly present.
And when you are truly present,
that’s nirvana,
that’s pure love.
So, death is pure love."

I know it's the guru who says that in the movie and it was supposed to be a confused/confusing message, a proof of his twisted sickness etc but I can't help to find this "true" and more than interesting. Yeah I mean why do we fear death so much ?

DEATH
OK we are not Socrates so death does not look happy to us because it's the moment our soul is released, ready to go back to the Intelligible Realm and finally seperated to its (her?) enslavement to our bodies but yes death is a part of life and we just have to accept it.
Just for the record, contrary to popular belief, death is not opposed to life. There is Birth and there is Death, in the middle there is Life. Death is actually a PART of life. Can't remember where exactly I read it. Anyway I really think we should stop being afraid of death. Of course it's easier said than done. Personally I'm still afraid of death because I'm so young and haven't achieved a lot of things yet. But there are some moments when I feel I could die just tomorrow, and die happy. These moments seems very important to me. I'll try all my life to feel them.
I love life to death, but I think I'll never, never, never inflict birth on someone. Not in this world. What is also beautiful in death is that you can choose it whereas birth is never never a choice. (And no the foetus does not "want" to be brought in the world, it's a foetus.)

So what about life ? Can WE make it start, and/or end it ?

FEAR
This statement moved me because I've been experiencing fear lately and realised how it can be part of the game, the thrill, how much you can enjoy the moment , and how much you learn from it at the end. I've finally understood why there are games such as the russian roulette, binge drinking etc. Fear is powerful, fear can lead you to the strangest places. But what is so amazing about fear is that it creates complete awareness. Could seem paradoxical but it's not, fully awareness makes you stop thinking and so you act as a kind of "other yourself", and that other yourself can become really really important.

LIVING THE PRESENT
I'm still trying to figure out what exactly is the present and if there is a thing such as that and so if we can "live" it. Tell me if you have any clue.

Notes dans le métro (from the underground)

Où commence l'amour, où commence l'égoïsme ? Qu'est-ce que l'amour ? Pourquoi a-t-on tant besoin de quelqu'un d'autre ? Pourquoi tomber amoureux ? Pourquoi faire l'amour ? Pourquoi faire l'amour avec la personne qu'on aime ? Est-ce si évident ? Pourquoi avoir des enfants ? Pourquoi se limiter à une personne et appeler ça l'amour/preuve d'amour ?

Comment savoir si l'on est juste ↓

→ "amoureux de l'amour".

La plupart des gens sont ↑

Live together, die alone.

Pascal : On n'aime jamais personne, que des qualités: beau, belle, riche, intelligent(e).
(Citation exacte: On n'aime donc jamais personne, mais seulement des qualités.)

Fidélité = mensonge à soi-même sur la nature même de l'Homme. Nous ne sommes pas faits pour la monogamie.

Sexe hors de la logique de reproduction = menace pour la société. Sexe inutile. D'où condamnation pratiques hors normes.

Pourquoi rituels de séduction ?

«

— Et l’art, lui demandai-je ?

— Patience ! l’art était encore dans les limbes. J’avais étudié le spectacle de la nature, j’étudiai les monuments des hommes.

»

Nous sommes un 29 février. Cela n'est pas souvent. 

La poésie sauvera sans doute le monde.

We accept you one of us! Gooble Gobble!

Bibliothèque du Docteur Faustroll, Alfred Jarry, au chapitre IV du "Gestes et opinions du docteur Faustroll, pataphysicien"

1. BAUDELAIRE, un tome d’EDGARD POE, traduction.

2. BERGERAC, Œuvres, tome II, contenant l’Histoire des Etats et Empires du Soleil, et l’Histoire des Oiseaux.

3. L’Evangile de SAINT LUC, en grec.

4. BLOY, Le Mendiant ingrat.

5. COLERIDGE, The Rime of the ancient Mariner.

6. DARIEN, Le Voleur.

7. DESBORDES-VALMORE, Le Serment des petits hommes.

8. ELSKAMP, Enluminures.

9. Un volume dépareillé du Théâtre de FLORIAN.

10. Un volume dépareillé des Mille et Une Nuits, traduction GALLAND.

11. GRABBE, Scherz, Satire, Ironie und tiefere Bedeutung, comédie en trois actes.

12. KAHN, Le Conte de l’or et du Silence.

13. LAUTRÉAMONT, Les Chants de Maldoror.

14. MAETERLINCK, Aglavaine et Sélysette.

15. MALLARMÉ, Vers et prose.

16. MENDÈS, Gog.

17. L’Odyssée, édition Teubner.

18. PÉLADAN, Babylone.

19. RABELAIS.

20. JEAN DE CHILRA, L’Heure sexuelle.

21. HENRI DE RÉGNIER, La Canne de jaspe.

22. RIMBAUD, Les Illuminations.

23. SCHWOB, La Croisade des enfants.

24. Ubu Roi.

25. VERLAINE, Sagesse.

26. VERHAEREN, Les Campagnes hallucinées.

27. VERNE, Le Voyage au centre de la Terre.

Daria L'Impériale

Wilde Child: Morrissey interviewed by Paul Morley Blitz, April, 1988

[...]

Do you think that such troubles, and the nature of your sexuality, informs the ways and means of your songs?

What can you possibly mean?
There's a lot of guesswork concerning your sexuality, but it seems very important to your work.

People do try and join up the dots to come up with some kind of answer... There may well be no answer. I have to say, and this sounds rehearsed, I've always felt closer to transexuality than anything else.
What is your ideal sexual experience?

I don't have a vision of it at all. Why do people ask me questions like this?
Because you ask for it. You're the only person who can seriously be asked those questions.

Oh, come now.
Is there any sex in Morrissey?

None whatsoever. Which in itself is quite sexy.
What happened to the sex?

It was never there. Not thoroughly, so to speak...
What happened?

Nothing! It goes back to being an incredibly unpopular person. No one asked.
Did you ever ask anybody?

Once or twice. Girls and boys. I sent notes... After a while I thought, that is it, that is the end of the notes. I don't want to go through that anymore. In a particular sense, I am a virgin. Well, in a very thorough sense, actually (chuckle).
Do you feel you have missed out?

I tend to think so, yes. But so be it. Perhaps if there had been sex, I wouldn't have written.
Have you had fantasies of fucking?

Yes. But they pass...
No sex. No love. What kind of cold person are you?

A horrible one, no doubt. The next answer will again appear in big black bold letters at the top of the interview. I've always felt above sex and love.
Sounds mighty.

No, it's incredibly light, and you're being sarcastic anyway. In a way, I believe that all those things like love, sex, sharing a life with somebody, are actually quite vague. Being only with yourself can be much more intense. I personally have always felt trapped within the feeling of being constantly disappointed with people. In a way I do feel things that are conceivably better and more important than sexual situations. I mean, sex is presumably the final point one reaches, I don't know. It doesn't matter to me. All the emotions I need to express come from within me. They don't really come from other people. I seem to feel things far more intensely and precisely than people who express a rag-bag of emotions and survive, just, loads of relationships. I see all situations, even when I'm not involved and it's nothing to do with me, in a very dramatic way.
[...]